Showing posts with label school. Show all posts
Showing posts with label school. Show all posts

Saturday, February 28, 2015

What I’ve come to learn as a Post Grad student

I've actually come to learn quite a lot since starting my post graduate studies – much more than I thought I would. I studied an undergraduate degree because I was forced to. I was told I HAD to get a university degree and that was that. So I chose to study something I thought I would hate the least. I ended up hating it either way.



Well clearly going into it with the attitude I had from the start did not aid things at all. But I just did not find the courses entertaining and helpful in a real way. Every module of learning in my undergraduate degree consisted of being fed dense theory and then having to regurgitate that info and also “apply” it. Even in my final year when we went out into the field to cover local stories I found that the theory followed me everywhere. We didn't just have free reign to go out there and do what we wanted, how we wanted to and then write up our story as we pleased. We had to follow it by the book and go out and do what the lecturer TOLD us to do and write up the story according to a set of rules. I do understand that certain rules do need to be in place; however we need to be able to work freely within those boundaries and exceed limitations. In undergrad I found the limitations to be suffocating and restraining to my imagination. I was so busy focusing on the structure and rules and trying to get them right that my stories became banal. At the end of my degree I absolutely HATED studying and even the thought of it gave me chest pains! I swore to never study again.

Fast forward to two years down the line and that expensive degree of mine has yet to reap any real job opportunities. Alas I decided that it was indeed time to go back to the drawing board. I enrolled into a Post Graduate Diploma course in Marketing and Supply Chain Management in the hopes that I could broaden my portfolio and make my CV more attractive to employers. I am currently in my second year of study and this is what I have learnt:
  1. When YOU decide to study for yourself, it means so much more. It’s real. Especially when you've been in the real world and realise just how hard it is. You KNOW that you cannot just do the minimum and hope to just get by. Just a pass will not do. You WANT to do well and you want to do it for yourself. You don’t just want to make it through to keep your parents happy and your lecturers off your back. You are now accountable to YOURSELF and no one else. And when you are accountable to yourself, with your future on the line, you WANT to succeed, so badly. You will sacrifice to achieve your best!
  2. When you are working, and then have to go to night classes after a hard day of work instead of going home to bed or out with your friends, you want to make these sacrifices worth the while. You are no longer a YOUNG full time student with all the time in the world and the hope of a bright long future ahead of you. You’re older now and are LIVING that future you dreamed of as an undergrad. And it is nowhere near as rosy as you thought it would be by now. If you are sacrificing your time that could be spent doing so many other things, time that is now so hard to come by and so very valuable, you will NOT want it to have all been for nothing. You do not want to have given up an early night after a really rough day of work and before an early morning only to fail the module. And for you to be left exactly where you were before you had made all those sacrifices. You want to come out of it with your degree/diploma and be able to go out and get a better job for yourself.
  3. Also, you now understand the money it takes to study on a much more real basis. Before your parents were just paying the bill and you never really paid much heed to it. And they wanted you to get that degree so they’d better pay for it! You didn't notice the extra charges. You’d just add everything to your student account and the bill would go straight to your parents and it was all rather intangible to you. Now, you know exactly how much every single module, textbook and course hand out costs. You do not want to have spent all that money only to come out of it the same as you went in. You want to get your money’s worth and that means absorbing every single bit of information you can and getting the best possible marks and getting that degree/diploma and bettering your future thus getting a return on your investment of studying. You WILL work hard. And when you achieve your goals you will be all the more excited and satisfied about it.
  4. And lastly, as I complained about in the beginning, undergrad degrees are so full of theory and shoving it down our throats and lacking in depth. In post grad you are given the chance to think out of the box and rewarded for it so long as what you come up with is actually possible and based on a reality. You are given the opportunity to put the theory into practice. It was in the practice of the theory and a further discussion thereon that I came to understand the theory, what it actually meant and how to go about putting it to use in the real world. When we had gone through the theory I thought that I had understood what was meant and expected by it, but when it was put into practice and discussed I learnt that it meant something entirely different. We were not told about what others had done and expected to learn from that. We were told to do it. But we were not just left there, after we worked on our own plans, it was discussed so we could see if we were on the right track and how to improve and what not. And it is through this practical hands on style of education that we are able to achieve greater understanding.  

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

I saw my primary school principal today

I saw my primary school principal today after 12 years. Okay, not 12, I lie, I did see him once when I was in high school about 8 years ago and he had remembered me then. I then saw him last year for a flicker of a moment and I guess he didn't have time to register my face, because he didn't say anything and so I thought he had forgotten who I was and that was that. And I'm not the type of person to really be the one to go up to someone.

So, he came in to the office today. I didn't expect him to know me after the last time... I greeted politely and he then asked my name. On hearing my name recognition registered. And he was like, "how could I NOT remember that cute little face when you were small". And goes on to say how he remembers how little I was and what not and asked after my family and myself.

He asked what I did after school, and I won't lie, I was shamefaced and trying to figure out a reason to explain my current situation. There is nothing wrong with being a secretary at all, so I'm not trying to belittle the position/job title in any way. But, I was one of their "good" students. And I know all my primary school teachers, especially the principal had had high hopes for me. So, it was a bit tough for me to be there in my current position. Especially after having studied 4 years to get an expensive degree and to then end up doing a job I could have walked into after high school.

Anyhoo, I told him that I studied to be a writer, though in my effort to convey this without using the words journalism or media, I ended up mumbling everything. So, I said I studied that, but could not get any jobs so I'm working at my current job and studying part time. I'm not sure if he fully gauged what I tried to say though...

I had always thought that if I were to bump into one of my school teachers it would be when I was doing quite well for myself and reasonably successful. And the teachers would be so proud and be like we always knew you would do well or make something of yourself. And then they'd go back and tell the story of how they met an ex student of theirs and the student has achieved this and that...

Okay, so I probably sound like a bit of a douche, but it's not that I had/have an air about myself or anything, it's just that I expected life to be so much simpler than it turned out to be. Yet, there are so many of my peers that have accomplished so much (and yeah I know you don't compare, I'm not, I'm just saying that others have done it and I don't know how and it sometimes seems unfair). So I was just disappointed that I didn't have "more" to show for myself when I met my old principal.

My life is nowhere near where I'd planned it to be at this age, and I feel the weight of that every single day. But, I keep trying to be positive and move on. Then, I see my old teacher and it all comes back tenfold.

It was a bitter sweet moment. I was truly happy that he remembered me but I wished that I had lived up to his expectations of me. He was one of my favourite teachers in primary school and was really and truly an amazing principal, we were truly lucky to have him. And having him see me now, it's like I've let him and myself down, as well as everyone who ever believed in me. And that just made me really sad.

But, I know I'm still relatively young. And my life isn't over yet, so I can still make something off it. I just wish I knew how and had more time. I wish time would stop running out and I'd get my early twenties back. I wish I could go back to primary school where everything was so simple and fun. I just wish a lot of things and I guess that's just what it'll be...

I wish.