Why o why...?!

People don't tell you all their bad qualities when they trying to get you to like them and go out with them. All they tell you is the good stuff. They just try to impress the shit out of you. Even in the beginning of the relationship all is good and dandy and you both just wanna make the other person think you the best person ever...

But then a couple of months into the relationship, and the cracks start to show. And they're damn big cracks too! Like you find out he's a bigger drinker than he originally let on, he hasn't really been trying to quit smoking successfully and he is a lot friendly with the opposite sex than he should be, and the list could go on forever!

Another thing is in the beginning you are lead to believe that you are the most important person in his life and he's willing to give up all his time for you...Later he couldn't give a damn to even sms, miss call or please call... Going out with his friends, chilling with his family, playing cards all night, playing pool or soccer table, and the like of such things, are so much more exponentially cooler than talking to you... When he gets home and before passing out in bed or if he's waiting around for something or just chilling all alone with nothing better to do, that's when he HAS to talk to you, and if you're busy well you don't have time for him and you don't care about him...

It's always about him... And if you have a problem with anything he does or says or doesn't do or say, then you're just being difficult!

What on earth is it with guys that makes them think they're God?! Are we just to jump every time they merely glance in our direction... I am truly over this right now and I just cannot do this to myself any longer. I had had enough yesterday, but I was weak and was drawn to giving in today, but then he did it again. I refuse to be a little poppie! I am my own person and if you don't have time for me, well then buzz off, 'cause I don't have time for people who don't have time for me!

I think its time we stood up for who we are and what we believe in. To people in relationships with someone who is only around when they need you, I say you don't need that person. Move on and up.

To you who has broken my heart o so many times, I shan't let you have the victory over me! You do not rule me, you do not control me, and you are not worthy!

Here's to taking back the power!
Cheers!

HSS presents an IIFA extravaganza...

22 August 2009 saw the Hindu Student Society of Rhodes University celebrate its 10th annual cultural show at the Settlers Monument in Grahamstown. They decided to showcase the theme under the banner of the Bollywood IIFA awards.

The hype surrounding the event was relatively big as compared with previous years and with this been it's 10th year things were rumoured to be of great standards and boasting the likes of the Ashwin Trikamjee, the head of the South African Maha Sabha, as the guest of honour.

Tickets were priced at 60 bucks, which is rather reasonable as it included the show, a meal of rice, dhall, potato curry and vermicilli, oros juice and water, tea and coffee during interval and a free pass to the after party, which was also held at the Monument. However, to the average student budget and in recent times with the recession, 60 bucks isn't all that easy to come along (after that escapade I was left with no funds for a bus ticket home, and had to render a call to the dearest dad for some financial aid in getting back home at the end of term).

You passed through a tunnel and then entered the main entrance hall which had tried to create an IIFA feel. The meals were served on either side of the hall and guests enjoyed their meals while standing and walking around meeting up and having conversations with others (there were no seating arrangements provided for the meal).

Despite the great hype about the event however, there was a rather poor turn out in comparison with the previous year. A theory to this was the fact that it was the start of Ramadaan, and a large number of the audience is usually the Muslim students of Rhodes. It was also stated by executive members of the HSS that at least an average of a hundred people who had bought tickets had not shown up.

The opening act was an invocation dance by Rhodes first year student Neloshini Naicker. Thereafter the first half of the show were a range of medleys by groups from around the Eastern Cape. In keeping with the theme of IIFA awards were given to various HSS members throughout the evening for various quirky things such as the 'I wish I was an Indian' award the 'Smurf' award for the shortest member.

Most people were not too impressed by the first half of the show. It didn't have a 'wow' factor. And the mc's 'Ash' and 'Dash' really tried too hard, the conversations, jokes and witty remarks all sounded scripted. The show did pick up after the interval though, but the mc's still required more work. The second half of the show woke the audience up with the traditional 'First Year Dance', done every year by the first year HSS students. Chipo Hamukoma did a fusion Indian dance, there was a unique yet beautiful mix of Bollywood and classical dancing by the Gitanjili dance group of Port Elizabeth, and an interesting Mapansula dance amongst other note worthy performances.

Still people's opinions were split about the event. Some found it average, others thought it to be quite entertaining. But to all that had attented last years show, there was mutual consensus that it was better just because it was shorter!

The much anticipated after party however didn't really seem to take off. There must have been a maximum of about 15-20 people on the dance floor at any given time, and before the clock struck one I thought it better to head for home. Apparently the hall was emptied by two...

So all in all, it was a cool show and anything beats res food. But, was it worth my bus ticket, hmm...

What's going on?!

So the charges against Jacob Zuma have been dropped by South Africa's National Prosecuting Authority (NPA). Yeah, so its been droppped on technical grounds, but really if it wasn't this it might have been something else... It had been discovered that the former chief investigator had manipulated the 'legal process'. Well, this may be true, but I honestly didn't hold much hope of Zuma been charged either way. So I ask, what's going on with our country?

Maybe I've become way too cynical about our country, but I am not surprised by yesterdays news. Yes, I had been holding a slight ray of hope, but it has been proven that I was right in my mistrust. We all sat glued to the screens during the Zuma rape trial, it seemed merely a legal formality for the court process to be carried out, but then Zuma was found not guilty. How is it so that Zuma is able to continuously evade the hand of the law... Schabir Shaik has been prosecuted on charges of corruption, and Zuma has been linked to him, yet Zuma walks off spot free...

And the most surprising thing is that he still has so many supporters! After all of this one would think that people will be weary of Zuma and more sceptical about him and his policies, yet people still believe that he is fit to be our president...Its a hard hitting fact and in our strained political times a lot of people have opted to emmigrate. While I do not agree with the idea and don't believe that this will solve anything, I can understand where these people are coming from.

The 2009 national elections are nearing in on us every day. The decision of who to vote for is going to be a tough one. I believe that the ANC has lost it's principles and is now a domineering force in South Africa, monopolising the government and the country, and just striving for power. COPE presented a ray of hope when they miraculousy formed, but can they make a difference...The DA has been trying to loosen the stronghold of the ANC for years, and they have so far proved the most successful...but they have yet been able to created an equal enough playing field within the running of this country....

So, what do we do...What can we do...Many have developed an apathy towards voting, sometimes I share their feelings...but essentially, every vote does really count. We are lucky enough to have the voting system that we which allows for smaller party's to hold a seat in parliament, and every seat can make a difference. So, whether you believe its worth it or not, you should just vote, because apart from the fact that many people have died for us to get the right to vote, you owe it to your future to vote, and be counted. In a country, as an ordinary person who doesn't really stand out, and doesn't have a voice to get out there, by voting you are making a difference, and giving yourself a voice.

Yours in prayer for our country...
Nicole

Sunday, Hallelujah!

Good morning world :)

It's a great morning in the Grahamstown today :) Hope everyone is feeling good and cheerful...I've been to church this morning :) Lol, ja my first time since I've been here this year...I plan on deepening my spiritual life this year. It really took a fall last year and this is my year to put God first and stop taking Him for granted. It's so easy to just forget about God and be sidetracked...You come here and you're like 'I'm here to study and don't have time for anything else...' And you don't think going to church is essential, especially when you could be working in that time (even though you don't) or you could catch up on some shut eye and laziness overcomes you...

I know it all too well, I've been there...and I guess I sort of am still there...I've been in the Gtown for 3 weeks, and this is my first time at church...I've found that its a lot better when you have company. At the beginning of last year when I had company I found it a lot easier to get up, get ready and go to church, but then my friend found her place somewhere else and I found my place somewhere else...And I'm not a person who really makes friends easily...So I still don't really have anyone to go with me to church, but I really want to interact with other Christians, so I've gotten my friends to be tough on me and make sure I'm out of bed and my butt is leaving res by 8:00am on a Sunday morning.

Lol, ja I know, its having quite high expectations for so early in the morning, wouldn't the later service be better...But I prefer starting my day of early...Anything to get me out of bed and to an early start is good. And getting that time at church with God and His people, and starting of my day and week with that is just a sort of good start, I think.

Keeping your sights set on God is not always easy. It sounds real bad to say this, but I know its true. It's just not that easy to keep your focus...You really need to keep your head about things and keep praying and always trying to keep in touch with God. The best way to really keep in touch is always to keep in touch with God's people. I never believed this before, but I've come to realise how necessary fellowship is. Just chilling on your own and praying and talking to God is good, but it doesn't really build you up spiritually...And you don't really grow much... By fellow-shipping with other Christians, you can hear other peoples stories and hardships...you can share in your problems...Even if you don't want to share, just having people to share God with is awesome!:)

Well, I'm happy now. I know I still need to work on my relationship with God. Just going to church is not a relationship with God. So I'm going to be trying... Hope you all have a blessed day and week ahead:)

Be blessed :)

what a day!

Hey

Yoh I haven't managed to blog in a while! Lol not that I've really blogged that often before, but ja...I have hopes...

Ah second year is really no joke. I haven't a clue what's happening to my days anymore. Before I know it it's the end of the week and end of term is coming nearer and nearer and I can barely remember the start of term.:O!Yet this is only the third week of lectures. It seems as though I'm living deadline to deadline...Things are so intensely insane and insanely intense! What's happening?! Well I guess part of the problem is the fact that I greatly procrastinate and tend to daydream a bit too often... But, honestly I just don't know where the time goes...

Well the fact that I've managed to actually squeeze in some time to blog is something to be happy about...And I am a little okay on my deadlines for tomorrow, I've managed to get my English essay done and handed in today-the earliest I've ever handed in an English essay!(and also one of the only times that I've actually done my work before it's due rather than the morning it's due:O)So that's a big up:) And so the only thing I'm left with for tomorrow is a Psychology tut:O But, that shouldn't be too intense...I've decided to bunk kung fu training tonight too:O(ja ja I know, but I went on Tuesday) and well this is a good opportunity to catch up on alot of reading, notes and studying...Yoh Comp Sci test next week:O:( People, really Comp Sci 1L1 may be considered arb and a dummy course, but don't be fooled...it's not that simple...

Anyhoo I must be off now, I hear the dining hall calling to me(ja I know, the food is crap, but when it's the only food you have, and food is rare, you look forward to it!)

Ciaos

intensity

Back to Rhodes... Ah I got back last week Thursday and this is the first chance I've gotten to blog!:O The first week of lectures have been o so hectic! Damn they really don't take it easy on us second years!

I had an assignment due yesterday for journ already. The work is just wow man. Unbelievable. I'm so craze right now and talk about a rush, this morning I had a double prac all the way up at the AMM building(7.45 :O) and straight after that I've got a comp sci lecture all the way down at the physics department! Insanity or what. Urgh but the worst part of my day is that I'm now free...until the 9th period!16.05 ! I am so hating that psychology 1 course co-ordinator dude! He told us that that was the only available time, but people who registered after us got earlier times!

And on top of that I'm broke already! Thats what English 2 does to you people, dont't do English unless you're really insane. Haha I so need to get a job, make some cash. But I need to sort out my CV firstly. And then lets not talk about kung fu commitments...But I've got to be honest, I so didn't wanna go to training yesterday, but I enjoyed. I'm glad Stayce(my fellow kung fu buddie:D) dragged me there.

Lol I'm feeling drained, heaven knows what I did to feel this way...But I feel that I should be leaving these labs...Lol ja I should...Ciaos
O and never take up comp sci peeps!...

Peace out

i haven't a clue, agro maybe?

Urghhh! I'm so tired and drained out, and yet I have basically done nothing, save for late nighters watching dvds and chatting on mxit... but that's about exciting as my life gets hey (sigh).

Well at least I can blog about the uneventfullness of my life...:) haha small pleasures:)But the weather is definitely not on my side today (not that it ever is...). It's pouring outside, I mean I love the rain and all, its utterly beautiful, just, I had such great plans to take a walk and go and chill out in the nature...now those plans are pretty much screwed up. The most exciting thing to look forward to now in my life is...a bowling extravaganza on Sunday:D. Now knowing my luck, lets pray it works out...

Though I am getting quite annoyed about going out already... Why am I always the one that has to make the plans to meet up and on top of that bend over backwards just to accommodate them too?! Since last night I have reached the decision not to bother, if other people are not willing to at least try, well then I aint gonna change my plans just for them. Life's about living and having fun, not about standing around and waiting for other's...

That's enough of my whining for one morning I think hey...lol mwahs

Peace out rockstarz ;)

Back to school

Hmm... So we're getting nearer to that time again, going back to uni! Hmm, leaving the luxuries of my warm bed at home and brilliant home cooked meals, to go to the beauties of res dining hall cuisine ooh...how exciting!:D

Lol I'm really not too sure how I feel about going back to the Gtown (Grahamstown for those who don't know). Okay, so it is a beautiful plek and alles, I mean I really do love the place, but I'm really gonna miss home too. The meals, bed, family, friends, my lil nunuz Cuddles and lets forget that special other that I've grown even closer to this ho l:(. Ah sad times...

But good times too... Getting to see all the maats from Rhodes! I missed em guys so much! And I'm really physched up to get going and start living! Woohoo! And, well first year was awesome, but it was a true learning experience. Now that I'm all growed up I think I'm better equipped to handling university, and more especially...Rhodes. for all those people out there that think university life is one heck of a joy ride,peeps it aint. Sure it's fun, but you really gotta work. So just remember balance menses, its all about balance.

Anyhoo that's it, I've got to go get started on the preparations for uni. Yikes, I'd rather not think about it right now though. But, from past experiences, now is better than never.

Peace out